I have been completely off the radar with my blog, both writing posts and getting the chance to read others, but I’m going to try my best to get back into it. Work is finally calming down, I’m.. pretty much settled in and just going on with my everyday life. Eat, sleep, work, repeat. Woop.
So I’m feeling a little bit awkward about this blog post, but I feel like I need to tell somebody who will actually understand, and hopefully be able to help.
I’ve been on the contraceptive pill since I was about 16/17. I haven’t really had any problems with it, or so I thought. I have always suffered with terrible spots (I’d be lying if I said it wasn’t partly down to eating disgusting amounts of chocolate and drinking awful amounts of pepsi, daily!) and I have always been rather easily agitated. I don’t just go into little moods, they are BIG ones, and I don’t make much effort to bring myself out of them. Never did I think that this could have actually been connected to the pill I’ve been on for the last 6 years. Until I spoke with my sister-in-law about it, and she kindly pointed out my spot problem and how it can be hormonal related, and then I started making connections with my mood ect. Of course, I googled other people’s experiences and symptoms and start to see people saying the same as me.
So I finally plucked up the courage to go to the doctors about it. Whilst I sat there in the waiting room, palms sweating, heart pounding, I just think, why am I doing this, really? Anyhow, I explained the situation and my doctor has now prescribed me with a new pill, Gedarel. Fine, yes?
Except I’m petrified about changing – yes it might sort out my spots and my mood problem, but it may come at a price. I’m so scared that it might give me a migraine and make me sick, or just make me ill in general, light headed, anything that could potentially make me be sick. Everyone keeps saying, you’ll just have to try it and if it doesn’t suit you, you can just change back. IF ONLY IT WAS THAT EASY.
What makes it worse is that I’m due to take my first new pill tomorrow, I’m out photographing Saturday morning and at a gig Saturday evening. I’m nervous enough about these sort of things at the best of times, incase something happens which I cannot control, I think we all know what I’m talking about. And if I start to get these side effects of this pill while I’m out, I am clearly going to be a state. I’m worried my weekend will already be ruined, as I’ll constantly be worrying about it. Needless to say, I’ve been trying to do some research about Gedarel and the side effects people have experienced, and I haven’t exactly found the most positive ones.
Don’t get me wrong, I know the pill affects everyone differently. But I guess this is a little cry for help, just if anyone has been on this pill before, or any pill in general and how it affected their anxiety/emetopohobia/general wellbeing. Even if it’s a bad story, I would like to hear it… I think 🙂 I would be hugely grateful for any kind feedback!